Grey's Anatomy (TV Series)

All I Could Do Was Cry (2015)

Jesse Williams: Dr. Jackson Avery

Quotes 

• Dr. April Kepner : [sobbing]  There's no way, no way for me to do what I need to do... and what I... I believe that I should do.

  Dr. Catherine Avery : Shh, shh, shh. There is a way, sweetheart. There's always a way. Now, here's what we'll do. You will choose a day. Soon. Set it aside and arrange to be induced and you'll give birth to your beautiful little boy. And you'll give him a name and have him baptized right then and there. Then you're gonna get to hold that baby. And you'll pray for him and sing to him. You're gonna look at him. You're gonna look at him and memorize every little detail of his face. And you will do that as long as he lives. You will do that until God takes him. That's how you will do this.

  Dr. Jackson Avery : We can do that.

  Dr. April Kepner : [sobs]  Can you do that for me?

  Dr. Catherine Avery : Oh, of course I'll do that for you. I'll do that for you and him and us.

  Dr. April Kepner : Okay.

  Dr. Jackson Avery : Okay.

  Dr. April Kepner : So, I'll just... I'll just hold him until God takes him.

  Dr. Catherine Avery : That sounds lovely.

  Dr. April Kepner : Maybe God won't take him. Maybe... maybe they'll be a miracle. I'll just pray for a miracle.

  Dr. Jackson Avery : Okay.

• Dr. Jackson Avery : God... I don't know. I don't know, uh... If you're out there or not, um or if you can even hear people who don't know if you're out there or if you give a crap about what they say, but, um... God, Yahweh, Buddha, E.T., whatever... April knows. Right? She believes and she needs you. So, uh... um, show up for her? Please? Show up for April. She loves you. She needs you. Please, uh... show up for her. Please.

• Dr. Jackson Avery : April. Just wait. Okay, you're right about miracles, okay? Sometimes they happen. There are hearts that start beating again. There's cancer that just goes away on its own. I know. I've seen it. It happens sometimes, but this, April... this is not that.

  Dr. April Kepner : I know. This isn't fair. It isn't... just. And I have spent my life believing in a god who is just. He gave me a calling, and I followed it. I save lives everyday. I feel like I'm... I'm finally becoming the person that he wants me to be.And then this to be handed this? It's cruel.

  [crying] 

  Dr. April Kepner : I feel like God is laughing at me. If this is a test, I fail. All those years of trusting and believing and praying... and if this... If this were just... even a tiny bit, then I could make... I can't. I have to go back to work. I ha... I have to go to work.