Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (TV Series)

Blackout (2019)

Callie Thorne: Nikki Staines

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• Olivia Benson : Hey, Nikki. Come in. How are you holding up?

  Nikki Staines : Um, aside from the panic attacks and trouble sleeping?

  Olivia Benson : Yeah, I get it. Believe me. Well, if it's any relief, Rob is being held without bail in the federal system. He can't get to the judge this time.

  Nikki Staines : That's good. That means we have a shot.

  Olivia Benson : Yes, we do.

  Nikki Staines : [starts crying]  My God.

  Olivia Benson : Hey, It's okay.

  Nikki Staines : I can't believe it.

  Olivia Benson : It's okay. It's okay, Nikki. It's over. It's over and he can't hurt you again.

  Nikki Staines : No. That's not it. Um, It's me.

  Olivia Benson : What do you mean?

  Nikki Staines : All the cases that I've done. And all the... all the victims that I've put on the stand. The way that I have have torn them apart.

  Olivia Benson : You were just doing your job.

  Nikki Staines : I know. I know what I did to them now. And I don't know if I will ever be the same again. And I... I don't even know if I'll be able to do my job again.

  Olivia Benson : You will because you have to. And because, Nikki, because you're damn good at it.

  Nikki Staines : I don't I feel like I don't know anything anymore.

• Amanda Rollins : [to Nikki Staines]  Hey, what happened to you?

  Nikki Staines : I can't remember. I must have been drugged.

  Amanda Rollins : Okay, okay. We're gonna take care of you.

  Odafin Tutuola : You know who did this to you?

  Nikki Staines : No. All I know is that I need a goddamn rape kit.

• Nikki Staines : This shouldn't be in here.

  Amanda Rollins : What?

  Nikki Staines : This note about the judge threatening me with sanctions. It was during the sex party trial. I was defending Wally Stevens.

  Amanda Rollins : The one that was dismissed a few days ago, yeah.

  Nikki Staines : Yes, but this sanction was never on the record. It was a private conversation in chambers.

  Amanda Rollins : So how in the hell does Rob Miller know about it? He had nothing to do with that case.

• Amanda Rollins : Have you had any blowups with Rob Miller?

  Nikki Staines : No. Not at all. Uh, we've always been friendly and collegial. We had a nice conversation about scheduling at the party the other night. Why?

  Amanda Rollins : [showing her the file Miller gave Benson]  Because he gave us these records.

  Nikki Staines : Oh, my god. This is a total smear on me. Why is he doing this?

  Amanda Rollins : That's what I'm wondering.

  Nikki Staines : I did not realize he was that desperate to win.

• Nikki Staines : [to Rollins]  They're testing my clothes for DNA?

  Amanda Rollins : Yes. We're following procedure.

  Nikki Staines : And where are we on the blood work?

  Amanda Rollins : We'll have to wait a little bit longer for that.

  Nikki Staines : Make sure that they don't just test for roofies, please.

  Amanda Rollins : Okay.

  Nikki Staines : The last thing that I remember is ordering a drink, but I could have been drugged at any time.

  Amanda Rollins : Okay.

  Nikki Staines : A-a-and date rape drugs can cause retroactive memory loss...

  Amanda Rollins : We know that. I know you wanna feel like you're in control.

  Nikki Staines : I'm an experienced attorney, Detective.

  Amanda Rollins : I realize that, but you're gonna have to let us do our jobs.

• Nikki Staines : So you're just gonna hassle my old clients instead of looking at real suspects?

  Amanda Rollins : You know how this works. We are following every lead, trying to figure out what happened to you.

  Nikki Staines : I know what happened to me. I was drugged and I was raped. Have you even checked the video from the party?

  Dominic Carisi : Yes, we looked at the street cams, the security cams.

  Odafin Tutuola : If you were dosed there, the cameras missed it.

  Nikki Staines : Oh, well, isn't that convenient? So what? You guys think that I went out and had a one night stand and can't remember it now? I am not a blackout drunk.

  Amanda Rollins : No one thinks that.

  Odafin Tutuola : We're just looking at a list of individuals that may have motive.

  Nikki Staines : No, see, I know where you're going with this. You're looking to pin it on one of my clients so that you don't have to look at a guest list that is 50% police!

• Nikki Staines : Doesn't it seem funny to you at all that whoever did this to me knew enough to take my phone and turn off the tracking?

  Amanda Rollins : Everybody would know to do that.

  Nikki Staines : Well, who would go to such extremes to gain access to my key information? My texts and phone numbers and recorded statements from clients.

  Dominic Carisi : Are you really suggesting that somebody from our department drugged you and then raped you just so that they could steal your cell phone?

  Nikki Staines : A lot of your brother officers have vendettas against me because I have called them out and sued them.

  Dominic Carisi : You're out on a limb here, Counselor.

  Nikki Staines : I have been personally threatened by cops dozens of times and now I have been assaulted after a police party, so why aren't you questioning them? You should be looking at your own.

• Nikki Staines : [to Rollins]  Look, I got my daughter home sick from school, a ton of work to catch up on, so if you are just here to protect one of your own, I don't have time for it.

  Amanda Rollins : We have a new lead and I need to ask you some questions.

  Nikki Staines : I'm sorry. I have not been myself since this happened. I get really distracted and angry for no reason.

  Amanda Rollins : It's okay. Believe me, I... I know how hard this can be.

• Nikki Staines : Uh, I can't talk about this now. I need to get to bed early. I'm due in court in the morning.

  Amanda Rollins : Nikki, I don't understand. You accused us of dragging our feet with this case. Now we have a target...

  Nikki Staines : I wanna let it go.

  Amanda Rollins : What?

  Nikki Staines : Yeah, I made a mistake. Okay? I was drinking too much that night and I made a bad decision. So Rob Miller is right. Whatever happened was consensual.

  Amanda Rollins : While you weren't conscious?

  Nikki Staines : I am a defense lawyer. I know a lousy case when I see one.

  Amanda Rollins : Did somebody get to you?

  Nikki Staines : I don't wanna talk about it.

  Amanda Rollins : Was it Miller?

  Nikki Staines : Oh, my God, I am begging you to please let it go. Okay, I have too much to lose.

  Amanda Rollins : What is he threatening you with? What? Because we can protect you, Nikki.

  Nikki Staines : Don't you understand? I am going through a custody battle and I could lose my daughter. So you get it? You cannot protect me. I'm sorry, but I want nothing to do with going after Rob Miller.