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I first saw this movie about three years ago, and was left with a jumbled collection of emotions that included awe, horror, despair, wonder, rage, and hope...
The depiction of Brian as the victim of a deeply traumatic experience was perfect -- clinical psychologists will attest to the realism of the psychogenic amnesia into which Brian retreated following his rape at the hands of the baseball coach (as well as at the hands of Neil, who played a very real part in sexually abusing Brian). There were scenes in this movie that were excruciatingly difficult to watch -- in particular, the flashbacks to Brian's sexual abuse at the hands of the coach, as Neil goaded Brian into verbal and physical submission. One of the saddest scenes in the movie was that in which Zeke begged Neil to touch him, so as to feel the warmth of human contact one more time...
Few people have commented on the parallels between the scene in which Neil was brutally raped by the man from Brighton Beach, and the scene in which the baseball coach raped Brian (goaded on by Neil). I believe that this juxtaposition was central to the plot -- for the first time in his "career" as a hustler, Neil found himself in a situation over which he had absolutely no control -- just as he had forced Brian into a situation over which Brian had absolutely no control. I believe that the horror of this experience -- of being raped by a drugged-up, aggressive, brutal sexual predator -- enabled Neil, for the first time, to empathize with Brian and to understand the extent to which he had hurt and damaged Brian...
Many viewers have questioned whether or not Neil was truly gay -- I find myself amazed that so many people question this, given the numerous examples in which Neil expressed his attraction towards men (including his lusting after the centerfolds of his mother's "Playgirl" magazines, and his masturbating whilst watching his mother's boyfriend having sex with his mother). When he first saw his baseball coach, he described the event (in the voice-over) by stating that "Lust sledgehammered me". Just how dense does an audience have to be, to question what was, in my opinion, axiomatic?
The ending of this movie was both beautiful and incredible. The hardened, cold Neil -- the Neil who had never experienced a truly intimate emotional relationship with another human being -- held and cradled Brian, gently and tenderly stroking him and trying to banish the demons that he had introduced into Brian's life. The hardened, cold Neil -- the Neil who had been described by his best friend as having a black hole where his heart should have been -- hugged and cuddled the boy whose life he had destroyed, desperately trying to undo the damage that he finally realized he had caused.
The ending of this movie was about hope -- hope that even the worst trauma can be ameliorated, and that even the damage caused by the most terrible of memories can be contained. I believe that these two boys would have become friends in real life, and that they would have been close -- whether merely as friends, or sexually -- and would have genuinely loved one another, in the knowledge that each of them had been hurt by forces over which, in the end, they really had no control.
PHILIP CHANDLER
I first saw this movie about three years ago, and was left with a jumbled collection of emotions that included awe, horror, despair, wonder, rage, and hope...
The depiction of Brian as the victim of a deeply traumatic experience was perfect -- clinical psychologists will attest to the realism of the psychogenic amnesia into which Brian retreated following his rape at the hands of the baseball coach (as well as at the hands of Neil, who played a very real part in sexually abusing Brian). There were scenes in this movie that were excruciatingly difficult to watch -- in particular, the flashbacks to Brian's sexual abuse at the hands of the coach, as Neil goaded Brian into verbal and physical submission. One of the saddest scenes in the movie was that in which Zeke begged Neil to touch him, so as to feel the warmth of human contact one more time...
Few people have commented on the parallels between the scene in which Neil was brutally raped by the man from Brighton Beach, and the scene in which the baseball coach raped Brian (goaded on by Neil). I believe that this juxtaposition was central to the plot -- for the first time in his "career" as a hustler, Neil found himself in a situation over which he had absolutely no control -- just as he had forced Brian into a situation over which Brian had absolutely no control. I believe that the horror of this experience -- of being raped by a drugged-up, aggressive, brutal sexual predator -- enabled Neil, for the first time, to empathize with Brian and to understand the extent to which he had hurt and damaged Brian...
Many viewers have questioned whether or not Neil was truly gay -- I find myself amazed that so many people question this, given the numerous examples in which Neil expressed his attraction towards men (including his lusting after the centerfolds of his mother's "Playgirl" magazines, and his masturbating whilst watching his mother's boyfriend having sex with his mother). When he first saw his baseball coach, he described the event (in the voice-over) by stating that "Lust sledgehammered me". Just how dense does an audience have to be, to question what was, in my opinion, axiomatic?
The ending of this movie was both beautiful and incredible. The hardened, cold Neil -- the Neil who had never experienced a truly intimate emotional relationship with another human being -- held and cradled Brian, gently and tenderly stroking him and trying to banish the demons that he had introduced into Brian's life. The hardened, cold Neil -- the Neil who had been described by his best friend as having a black hole where his heart should have been -- hugged and cuddled the boy whose life he had destroyed, desperately trying to undo the damage that he finally realized he had caused.
The ending of this movie was about hope -- hope that even the worst trauma can be ameliorated, and that even the damage caused by the most terrible of memories can be contained. I believe that these two boys would have become friends in real life, and that they would have been close -- whether merely as friends, or sexually -- and would have genuinely loved one another, in the knowledge that each of them had been hurt by forces over which, in the end, they really had no control.
PHILIP CHANDLER
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