A subjective psychological portrait of a young man, a poet who decides to end his life after years of trying to get out of his devastating obsessions. It is an attempt to recreate the last years of the life of a future Polish teacher, and perhaps a teacher. The protagonist is an idealist with high ambitions, brought up in the Catholic spirit, whose ideas about himself are completely and gradually destroyed. In retrospective images, we follow step by step everything that led Patrick to the tragedy. His diary is the last record, the account, without trying to blame anyone for his decision.